I know that I have not updated in a while, but I almost feel like nobody is really out there anymore. I don’t know.
Thursday I went down to pizza works for the game with matt and Andy and Bryant. They picked me up and locked me in the car and were going to smoke while driving and I had to be part of it blah blah blah but I had an ap the next morning and said no. Then when Andy pulled out all the pot he had so fucking much but when he pulled it out there was a drug test guy in the car next to us and he saw it so we were all like fuck were screwed right now and sped to the pizza place which we were really close to at that time. Nothing happened but I made the boys drop me off and while they were in the woods smoking I bought them the food that they wanted. It was an interesting night. I left the place at like 8:30 though because I wanted to get rest before my exam the next day. I don’t know I have wanted to smoke and stuff for so long but now that I was put in the situation where it was open and available for me to I don’t really care to anymore. It’s like okay yes I can now but I don't want to, plus the boys are pushing it too much, which puts me off more and more. I don’t know I juts don’t know if I want to get into that scene right before the end of the year and all that with so much riding on everything right now. This summer will be a summer of change though and I can almost guarantee I will be doing a lot more this summer. Plus my older sister is home so her and I will be connected and chill a lot and she smokes and drinks and stuff so who know what will happen.
Yesterday I had people over to talk about prom plans and then we all went to pizza works and watched the game. There were probably 15 of us there hanging out. It was fun!
My prom is Friday I am very excited but I weighed myself this morning and I am fucking huge. I had no idea I gained weight, and it pisses me off because i have been working out a bunch and gained weight. Anyway my plan for this week is a 90-calorie smoothie for breakfast, crystal light for lunch and then eat as little for dinner as possible or skip it all together if possible. I am hoping to also loose water weight so I am not bloated at all prom night.
I need to kick my ass in gear and I suck majorly right now. Anyway today is mother’s day and I gave my mom her gift and al and then we went to my grandparent’s house with the family. It was nice now I am jut relaxing doing HW and then tomorrow back to school.
Hopefully I will begin to update more and comment more since I have been really slacking. Though watch out for an entry telling you what journal I switched to because i feel like a need a fresh start and all that so I am thinking of a good name that means something and then I will switch over